The Breakfast Club at PowerJam04

Yup this is my band. we play mostly funk, rock n roll, soul and top 40s.

a new singer juz joined our band. its a close friend of theirs. She has very fantastic strong vocals. We performed yesterday for this thingy and she rawks with her version of 'Chain of Fools'. I felt like a fool singing next to her. sigh...i know my voice needs lots of vocal training to reach her standard. she can reach all the high notes while i sing back up...honestly i dun mind singinging back up but what will pple say? "oh u have two singers but only one can make it?".....u guys know whats the funny part? she said that SHE was the one who feel very paiseh singing next to me. apparently i have a "sultry" voice....YEAH RITE!!! im not the one with the diva voice...aargh....very sian feel like quitting....i know they need me for my songs..is that what im only worth as? should i quit before its too late?....

Jalan Raya A.K.A go pple house, eat pple kuih and take pple $$

Honestly im not very fond of jalan raya...cuz the whole time u have to act as if ur very happy and smile until me cheeks hurt! haha...so there's like a few of my grandma's family who came over her house these few days..malay got this weird custom its like as long as u are working u have to give out green packets. It's bad enough i look damn old for my age so all these kids all come and salam (u know the peck on the hand thingy) me and waiting for me to give them packets...HELLOOO!! Its like im NOT THAT OLD ok! so there i was having to explain all the time that im still schooling and shit..then they go "oh...u look soo old.." ...mother fuckers... #%@ #%*#! embarrased like hell....

NEW YORK, NEW YORK!!!

Since i've acclaimed the knowledge to post pics i shall divulge u guys with part of my dream....

my dream and goal this moment is to travel and live abroad...go to diff places in diff countries and live there in prob a year or two...i know myself well, im that type who cant stay put in one place too long e.g spore cuz i'll go bonkers!!!! this month i've put in some rather serious thinking abt what i wanna do with this rather short, pathetic life of mine...thats why i decided to put myself in this kind of weird test and adventure and i hope i can start them within 5 years. i wanna meet diff kinds of pple and their cultures....to start off, i wanna go to NEW YORK! and also visit the famous Central Park!

entrance of dream home...

i feel that apartments in NY have "characters". Meaning they have lotsa depth, history and all...very "old-school" lah in simple terms.

Fireplace

i'll prob get a one room bedroom and maybe work my ass off as a waitress...hehe...yeah i know i wanna be a waitress in NY! There's soo much hype in it...haha...ok anyway...i want my lil room to have a cosy fireplace. yup so i can read me books and chill at me cosy apartment! haha......life will be simple but perfect!!!

Room With a View

it'll darn darn darn heavenly if my apartment overlooks the city skyline and/or the brooklyn bridge!!!

Introducing Central Park!!!

i got to know this place from the show FRIENDS....haha...its damn huge...its like botanical gardens time 100...haha....

central park during Fall

Breathtakingly beautiful....i can have a stroll here forever! haha....

horse carriage

imagine sitting in this horse carriage around the park...feels like a princess! haha...the park do have some historcal landmarks, very famous pple immortalized by statues....stuff like that....ooohhh and the gardens have like strawberries and stuff...very breathtaking and beautiful...definitely better than the botanical gardens....

snow gliding

you dun have to go to switzerland to do this...haha....imagine rite at ur doorstep!! yay!!!

Skating Rink...

the things i love about NY is that it embraces the 4 seasons....especially during the winter...i personally have not experience YET snow but im very exhilirated to do so...but i've done skating before at Jurong...haha does it count?! Anyways i dun mind falling onto the arms of a handsome man here...it'll very romantic especially in this atmosphere..hehe..erm..that is if im single lah...ahem....

Rock VS RnB SHOWDOWN!!!!

And then there was two.
At this point of time its undeniably obvious sylvester is still around cuz of his fans. His legions of fans vote more when he pout and wink, cry and vote even more when he kena slammed by judges cuz of his bad performance. Hiya let him have the title already lah. this point of time im already sick and tired of overzealous, blind, deaf singaporean teenagers. Whatever.

The one i pity most now is Taufik. He may not be a great singer but he's good enuf. Good enuf to represent singapore. pity he may not have as many fans as sylvester or else he may have a chance to win this. I know u pple think i come here slam my opinions, say who's good who's bad but still never vote! i think the voting thingy is lame lah. Honestly! However last week i cast 3 votes for taufik and 1 for olinda. haha...yeah waste me 50 cents cuz olinda went out! haha...i succumb cuz i really dun want that cheena guy to pass thru. sianz...

am i gonna vot for the final? maybe not...cuz eventually, i believe both of them will still get those sought after music contracts. in a few months time the first idol fever will subside and then the second one will take over. By then...............
Watch out for me!!!! hahahahaha.....................................

ok peeps im back..and very much alive thank you very much!]

after hibernating myself for a whole month, i guess its time i resurface and make a comeback to blogdom. haha like as if im ttthhhhaaattt important huh! haha...so tell me..did ya guys miiisssssssss me? tell me lah no need shy! tell me........

a brief summary of my holiday so far......

1. read many many books....read mags....novels....romance....thrillers...more than my fingers can count!

2. borrowed stacks of vcds.....to make sure time pass by really fast.....then if there is no more vcds to watch i'll go catch a movie!!

3. did cross stiching....still haven done up nicely yet...still got bits and pieces hope i finish by start of term...

4. sleep like a king! 12 hrs a day!! from 5am to 5 pm.....everyday....haha...

5. learn guitar basics....but still not pro yet! when?!?!......................

6. catch up on Days of our Lives!!! my life will be considered as super normal compared to Days!!!

7. did some soul searching and goal setting....

8. managed to go to the zoo!!! yay!!!

9. slack and slack and slack somemore!!!! hahaha.....

yup thats about what i did the entire month!!! really i never bluff! got my rest finally and my brain is charged and rearing to go!!

yeah rite......haha...........i think im addicted to this lifestyle!

SLACKERS UNITE!!! hehe....

WHAT DO U WANNA BE???....

Ever wonder what u wanna be when u grow up?

For me i never really thought about it. Especially when im in primary sch. However i still remember i wanna be a wedding gown designer. Yes it silly of me i know! I can remember clearly that when i was in pri 3 or 4, i bought this drawing book to sch and then start drawing my "creations" down. Yes i love to draw! Not nature stuff nor abstract stuff but i have a fetish of drawing people. haha....i love to draw people expressions....face...eyes....hair...lips...but i hate drawing the nose cuz i suck at it!! haha....ok back to the topic...so i start to have these wedding gown collections and showed them to my best friend then. Nope not u Estar..haha..its Adlin...haha she told me she always wanted to be a designer too if im not wrong...so there i was in my class when im like supposed to be studying im drawing..haha...i lost the book unfortch...hope it doesnt fall into the wrong hands...quite embarrassing actually!!!

Then when i reached pri 6 to sec 1, i wanted to be a rock star! yes i always love music and i wanna be a star!! i wanna be as famous as the spice girls!! haha yes its their influence lah...then me and bee always thought and wished that one day we'll be big! very big together. we'll form a girlband and stuff. we were singing everyday...play songs as loud as we can and mimic the dance moves and stuff!! i remembered us doing a demo together. and send it to sony...haha... Fun times....those were the days i missed...there was no stress...i was dreaming everyday...sigh...miss those days...

then when i was in Sec 3 onwards i wished i was actress..haha..yes theatre plays will do...remembered the drama and numerous skits and hosting we did estar in sch? i was sooo sure i was ready to make it in the entertainment industry!! Our sch musical i was also involved...great experience acting and singing in the Victoris Theatre to thousands of people!! I was hooked!!!!! i love the lights the glamour and the star treatment!!! haha...i love being able to express out a character that was never me...but i guess i'll never make it now...that im in BS it is sucking out my creative juice in me...i remember i used to be soo bubbly and joking all the time but slowly its sapping me out!! education is totally bringing me down!!!

thats why i wanted soo muh to join mass comm...however due to the lack of "ooomphh" in my command of the English language i was kicked in my gut twice. oh well guess its not meant to be....

Whats my ambition now? hmmm...i still wanna be a rock star and be in the entertainment industry. Alas i dun have the looks nor the body the mass is looking for so im putting those dreams aside....thats why i join a band...its to appease the music spirits in me...now im just glad if i'll be able to work in the entertainment industry...probably in fashion or music...major in marketing or advertising or something. creative things....im creatively-challenged..im not super creative but im pushing myself to be..hopefully one day i'll be able to work in new york and get my dream apartment....in the meantime i'll just see how life is gonna bring me....

so...what do you wanna be when u grow up?!?

EXAMS SO FAR

sorry guys me now suffering from some chronic hand fatigue so hard lah type...so im not gonna do my usual essay type blog. here's how my papers so far...

HRM- quite easy..craps alot...i think this is a waste time subject...

Micro- hard like shit..those bitches obviously wants us to fail again...aiyah dun care lah see how the results first....

oklah thats all i can master...very sleepy lah yest sleep only 2 hrs study micro...SOOO not worth it sia...aaargghhhh!!!!

I need a hug!!

More sad/depressing quotes...enjoy...

-Life doesnt want me death doesnt either I wish there was just an in between, something that was easier.

-Everyday i wake up, I cry a little more. Everyday i wake up, and i die a little more

-Death is the punch line of a bad joke called life. Once it comes you are so happy for it to finally be over

-Depression too often walks hand in hand with a deep sense of helplessness.

-The Person To Dry Your Tears Is The Person Who Made You Cry

-Society offen forgives the criminal but never the dreamer

-SO OFTEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR TRYING TO FIND SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL ... BUT ALL I SEE IS ME

-Life had one simplistic fate, every1 was born 2 die, so y the hell is it so complicated???

-Time Doesnt Heal Anything!!!!

-Why is it 'goodbye' has the word good in it, when it never is?

-Suicide is just a cry for help that nobody saw

-If suicide is selfish then why do you think we do it?

-Pain is beauty

-You loved me when i didn't loved myself

-It's amazing to me how I can be surrounded by a ton of people and still feel completely alone

yeah thats all for now.....next time i free i'll find and post more!...

MOTIVATIONLESS (does this word even exists?!?)

i have no urgency or motivation to study at all. im dead and i dun care. U people can bitch behind my back for all i care. estar i think i might repeat the whole semester with u next year! haha...well at least got friend to suffer with! haha....

DISCO NIGHT

Dear fairy godmother. will u do a kind deed by *poofing* all the S'pore Idol contestants to never-never land. (more like never-never sing again land!!) Probably back to the disco era where they can ALL start to learn how to dance AND for gods sake SING!?! Or u can conguer up a new island called "I Love Jerry" and he can be the President and then ship all his fans and his church and the rest of the idols to that island too!!! This is for the good of mankind as these people are a danger to the society!
Thank You and have fun! (oh btw, remember to bring ur ear-muffs..it'll be helpful! Oh and make sure they dun come back...if there's still space u can take the judges and producers too! So there wun be any repeats in S'pore Idol 2..if there will ever be one... ) =P

some few sad/depressing quotes i've found online:

-Lifes Like A Candle So Bright And Strong At That Start But Then Slowly Begins To Die Out

-My aspiration in life is death.

-Why is it that the people you love hurt you the most?

-Behind this disguise, my life has unhearingly spokenThat my life is hopeless, and my thoughts are broken

-Often suicidals dont want to die, not in the split second we do it, we want other people to see the physical pain we go through because of the mental pain they inflicted on us before we do die.

-I carved your name in to a bullet so you'd be the last thing going through my head. (wah this one a bit extreme ah! haha...)

-I don't envy I just wish

-Just wish i was anywhere but here

-If you love me then you'll die for me.I love you so im dead.

-A break up is like a broken mirror its better to leave it broken then hurting yourself trying to fix it

-Within my soul im flooded with the red sea for my heart bleeds tears.

ok these are only a few nice ones...i'll try to find more...

THE THING CALLED LOVE

"The Greatest Thing You'll Ever Learn Is Just To Love And Be Loved In Return" quoted from the movie Moulin Rouge.

Inspired by estar's lyrics, i decided to contribute on my ideas on LURVE!! Mine will be more on BGR love than family love. Cuz im more familiarize in this. I dun understand much about family love cuz my family is not around all the time anyways so i dun give a hoot about this genre.

Being i love and in a relationship is wonderful. Meeting walter is the next best thing that has ever happened to me. I never felt so much care and wantedness (is there even this word?!?) in my live. I felt secure and was provided with the best treatments like hugs and kisses. Especially when im feeling really upset or happy! Its not that friends are not good enough, the feeling is different. My freinds will always be there for me i know them. But being with ur other half, sharing so much intimately feels like im in heaven. hehe...

Once in my life, i was afraid. I was so afraid to put myself in a relationship that i rejected so many guys who were wooing me (not that they are suitable anyway...most are jerks..) Im not the despo type ok! but my dear fren mandy helped me thru this. thanx babe...ur advice on relationships helped as ur more exerienced than me...hehe...she told me to give love a chance. to open up. to receive whats mine.

I did. and thats how walter and me got together. i was very very sceptical at first because i known him for like only 2 months. im like so young lor! But we feel so right for each other. We complement each other. i felt it to so i decided to give in. we are together for almost 3 years now and going strong. our future together is bright. hehe...

to estar and many u-think-ur-lonely soul out there. Dun look for love. love will find you. dun rush it and if it comes dun feel scared about it. embrace it with open arms. to some of you, it will happen today or tommorow, for others it might be many many years later. i know how it feels to be "alone". But ur not alone actually. You still have frenz and families to go to when there's problems.

Being in a relationship is not all rainbows and sunshine either. its also about risks and responsibilities. Many break up because they eventually feel they are not suitable with each other. thats why i recommend that dun just go steady with people blindly cuz u wanna me in a relaionship. breaking up sucks like hell trust me!!! ooh and dun repeat ur mistakes.

ok thats all from me. im no aunt aggie k! haha craps!
Happy searching guys!
Good Luck! =)