Yearn turns to Anger, Anger turns to Hate.

I have a confession; I suck at being a half Chinese. Being born and bred half-half isnt as merry-merry as it should be. My friends keep saying wah im so lucky and stuff but to me its all shit! Do I embrace my Chinese roots? Hell yeah but my parents (esp mum!) seems to be ashamed of it. She said Chinese people do this lah Chinese people do that lah all the bull she dun believe. Eh coming out of her own cheena mouth. Partially embarrassing and hilarious I gotta admit. Lol. Needless to say I dont know Jack about Chinese customs.

My "reunion dinner" was a bowl of fried noodles. Shared with walter. Filled with taugeh. AArrgh! I detest taugeh! More than Zhang Zi Yi! Or Zi Yi Zhang!
Babe if u wanna do the American thing, pick an American name lah. Like Jessica/Kate/Ashlee Zhang or something. Bleurgh!

Blah Blah blah so I believe/assume everyone have already known or understand how dysfunctional my family is so I do not wanna tax anyone by repeating what i have said last year abt Chinese New Year. To recap, last year and this year its STILL the same!! Im still angst im still broke. (oh btw I think Chinese ppl are more generous with their ang pows! True right?)

So on behalf of my family, I wanna wish all Chinese out there a happy prosperous new year. And when I mean prosperous I mean earning big bucks by means of work or lottery (they deserves it, all the queue and endless disappointments! hehe!)
And then share the love....................................

"western beauty" - Marcia Cross

VERSUS


"oriental charm" - Gong li

Both women in her 40s. Still gorgeous still talented. Bree has always been my fav desperate housewife. what a waste she didnt won any award despite being nominated cuz she deserves one. Be my mummy Bree?!?!?!?!?!?!

Gong li has been around for years but me never ever took notice of her. However after seeing her in Memoirs i was enchanted. By her beauty and her acting skills of course! She's the epitome of a physicotic (right spelling??) bitch! haha. Be my mentor Hatsumomo!?!??!?!?!

http://www.youtube.com/?v=iQLm6YMBuPM

ok guys check this out! its a lil m18 but there is moral behind the story ok! it may take a while to download but it all worth it!

enjoy!

Zan feeling satisfied after eating a feast at Ghandi's! Yum yum....









so trigger-happy me took this at Little India. It was the opening of Apollo restaurant new branch...there was a mile long (haha well it looks like it) of congratulatory flowers outside the restaurant. There must be some very happy florist out there! haha...ka-ching!

Ritz apple strudel for dessert!!! The strawberry's equally delicious!!!

so at nyte we had a wonderful dinner under the stars!!! haha...ok we actually went to bishan park to eat maggie for dinner..walter had these camp stuff he got from ns...haha...so we decided it'll be undeniably romantic to eat like cavemen..haha...survival ok!!!








haha me trying to light up the fire..aaarghhh...i think if i join survivor i'll confirm die from starvation...

after dinner we played sparklers and i felt i was transported back to the days when im still young and there is nothing in the world i won't do to trade back my youth.......sigh..........

Fark my school's on FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha...kidding lah....it was a fire drill and it came with faux smoke and all that jazz...its actually quite fun lah cuz we did all the works thats needed to make the fire so believable so we screamed and screamed and packed our bags and ran for our dear life!! haha....well something like that lah....so among all the drama i had the time(like always) to take this beautiful pix of Becky! haha..and since we've already packed our bags our tutor actually dismissed us for the day! hah! sweet!

so here's what happened a few days ago which made me feel really guilty.

i was at the bus interchange waiting for my bus when i saw her. (no...not the other HER estar! haha) She was a close friend of mine in secondary school. Were very close for 3 years when we eventually move away from each other. I didnt fancy her lifestyle then and till now i dun. I shall call her R. here if i may ya. So what happened was i didnt saw her initially so i sat at this sit beside her. When i eventually did recognize her, she saw me too and i think she gave me a faint smile. i gave her a weird look and turn my head away. i was too shocked for words. i didnt turn back and i totally ignore her the entire ride. i could sense her awkwardness but i could not even muster a "Hello how are you"....

aaaarghhh...what am i supposed to do then? we didnt fight and break up..we just went our seperate ways naturally. last i heard she got married and had a baby...its not that im like so proud or wat but it just seemed so hard to even ask her how her life is u know? we had a past...maybe the past just stays in the past ya?
however this does not stopped me from feeling extremely ashamed of myself.

here's my 2 cents worth on this movie;

I went to the movie with high expectation as im a fan of Jennifer Weiner (author of the book of the same name). However it all fall flat. The movie is too long and whiney and the actors are not expressive enough. Who said Diaz can act? humphh! Its like Jennifer Aniston in Derailed. Stick to ur day job and just make us laugh babes. Oh did i mention Diaz has a great body? sigh...those who just wanna watch her half naked most of the time i strongly recommend this show. The only saving grace of the show is by this old granny whom i dunno the name. No not their grandma lah. Its this bitchy granny...she's the one with great one-liners! hah...

If ur gonna pay $19 to watch the movie like i did then just buy the book lah.

2.5/5 popcorns. (1 for the bitchy nenek, 1 for the script, 0.5 for the showcase of hundreds of amazing shoes..)

a new year a new start eh!!

what fantabulous ride i've been thru the past few months.
sch's great me results not bad.
still broke still angst.
what made me start doing me blog again?
lets just say i have many friends on the web.
i want UPDATES and i wanna give them my updates.
i miss them lah.........
(yes my NP gangbang...haha...)

Keep in touch yeah!!!

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