The Singapore Fashion Festival.

sigh it went by as quickly as it came. I made so many great acquaintances. touched so many beautiful/expensive clothes and models. i had a blast overall and i learnt as much as i needed to. i honestly am happy to find the kind of work i love and have the abilities to work for it in the future. i can definitely see myself doing fashion for as long as i want.

Bring on the bitches i dun care..........


im still pondering whether the dress or the model more beautiful......

If i cant have it then flaunt it lorz.....i heard these gowns costs at least $20k!!!! gulp i think i'll sew my own thank u very much.
i dressed the lil boy (middle) for island shop. he's so smart. ACS junior lorz.....i was so scared to dress him cuz he didnt wore any underwear (yes i saw IT! Tiny.....) and there were zips in his pants!

these were the only guys for missoni...Rocky, Fabio and Jonathan....their first outfit were swimwear...it was freezing lah so all of them were goofing around, jumping-jumping, do warm-ups....i asked farhan why they behaving like clowns and he said that they might be having some "reaction" to the cold...interesting! haha...

an angel and a wannabe..................

ok he's THE Jonathan. The male diva model i bitched about in my previous post.
Initially he didnt like me very well and vice versa. Hmmm...wat makes me take this pix with him?

Well lets just say he fell down the stairs the day before (hahaha GOD actually listens to my curses!!!) and i unfortunately have to dress him on that day cuz NO ONE ELSE wanna dress him...haha see where attitude brings ya. Ok back to the story. so he fell down and he wore shoes that day and he was wincing and struggling to walk. The curious soul in me asked him why he walk like that and why he wear the shoe in pain. He then said he fell down (trust me when i heard that my brain was actually CRYING IN LAUGHTER!!! *enters evil laughter*)

anyways i asked to see the wound..i may be evil but im not THAT evil k...he showed me and his sock were soaked with blood lorz and his stupid tissue were stucked to the wound lorz...eew!!!
At that point of time all grudges went flying away...he dun deserve to be in that kind of pain no matter how evil he was... i offered to get him the medic kit but he refused...i dun care lor and go find him one...ok here's the best part...I even help him with the bandages!!!!
HAH i couldnt believe im THAT nice...

After that u know what? he THANKED ME!! yes. HE THANKED ME! He even said "thanx for ya concern, i'll see you tmw". WTF!?!?! Now u thanked me?!? yOu DARE BITCH!!!! WAS IT THAT HARD TO SAY THOSE WORDS IN THE FIRST PLACE!?!?!

i didnt even say ur welcome i just stared and walk away! haha...yup thats what i did! u're rude to me once so dun expect me to me nice to you juz cuz i PITIED u....

So funnily the next day he was like super nice to me lah....haha....at the end of the day, i felt no reason to feel angry anymore...we were just too childish...so we made up and took that famous pix...haha....end of story!


i dressed this guy, Fabio, for missoni....he's so cute and has such a cute laughter!!!
REALLY i've never heard anyone laugh like him before....well anyway the shawl belongs to me and i had the excuse to borrow him that cuz it was freezing and he was wearing a bathing suit! heheh...im not washing it for some time...haha....

yes he's sooooo hot i cant stop kissing him...haha..

me and Rocky..everyone were crazy over him lorz...dunno wats the fuss...he's okay looking only...half philipino half brazillian...the babe on the left is half chinese half malay...haha...


haha me and farhan were really jumping when this pix was taken!! thats why cant see my face...

posing on the catwalk with darren

the wrap party....
champagne is officially me fav drink!!!! i drank too many flutes that nyte so i was really high and really drunk! haha.....overall the party was a blast....its the first time i was surrounded in a roomful of beautiful people....that u can never get in clubs! haha...

yay me won the top 10 "outstanding" volunteer award!!!!! $50 from Heeren....hmmm....haven been there for a year liao lorz....

so me and farhan walked down the catwalk with many many cheers and wolf-whistles from the crowd! haha so paiseh.....since im drunk and this is once in a lifetime thingy, i dun give a shit! afterwards we dragged people up the catwalk and dance...ala bar! haha.....

yes......im dancing wif jonathan alright! blame it on the champagne......hahaha.....he's like damn sloppy lah....where got people wear shorts and old t-shirt to a party!?! ur modelling fees not enough meh?! totally diff from the "posh" clothes he just wore a few hrs ago....

since i pity him dancing like a fool at one corner alone, i decided to jiggy beside him for awhile...well then i got bored.....so i left.....haha...he was still dancing.....i swear he's on dope k! he's like an energiser bunny that nyte.....
zan instinct is always right....

i cant wait for next year!!!!!!!!! ;)

Day three of SFF: Ashley Isham

Im telling ya right now im walking on cloud 9. Im so high right now cuz me got to DRESS JON JONSSON!!!!!!!!!!
Haha....yes im telling the farking truth!!! I got to dress him...meaning...saw him naked and all and touch his ahem...u know...haha...im not washing my hands I tell ya! Haha...

How lucky can a girl get!?!?! Jon has such a great body! All smooth and silky! Haha...so God was on my side and all his three outfits has pants without zips on them but with super complicated buttons! Ah bless Ashley Isham!

So he needed help in that area...soo...haha...a bit paiseh lah cuz accidently brush THAT for a few times and if I were him I would have thought me as a pervert! Haha...

Anyways he is all friendly and stuff telling me I’ve done a good job, encouraging me, smiling his captivating smile, his shyness etc. wah so much better than the bitch I have to dress the day before who just left w/o complimenting me! Now im totally anticipating for this Wed for Lancome. I hope I got the opportunity to dress him again although I know my chances is slim...but well...a year ago I was totally swooning over him...but now...haha I count myself to be a really lucky girl! Now what did I said about fate before hmm?!...........

Well i think Jon looks good in this...a bit gay lah but hah...that shirt took me soo long to button ok and the cravat was totally scratching me all the time. The other model made me damn paiseh lah when he said i keep doing doing doing the cravat but actually just excuse to touch his chest!!! i think i blush crimson red sia! Jon keep laughing and smiling but he's a man of lil words. very shy lah keep smiling at me looking at me. Everytime he look at me i feel like so scared something was on my face! Yup insecure Zan.....I call them my knights and thus they obliged with a picture! haha....my white knights.....the other model is Ashley's friend. he's nice so funny and flirty! my friends said he's gay....well...i think he's quite a cute gay! haha.....


i know im such a whore.....haha...but i cant help hugging him! His body is meant to be hugged and touch one ok! haha....Buns of steel....yummy!

Ok this model i think is much more better looking than Jon. However dun judge a book by its cover. My friend had the cheek to ask for his number and he actually gave it to her! And u know what? a few mins later i saw him cuddling/holding hands with a girl model whom i presumed is his gf. Oh what casanova.......

Jon's rack. Yup he had three whole outfit changes......i think Ashley a bit cuckoo cuz he dressed all the males with female looking clothes. Very Baroque/Rococo and some of the clothes made jon look like some ancient knight or something...damn damn dashing lorz....grinz....


Really gorgeous models! I love the mohawk but hate the scary oriental makeup! haha...

Sluts 'r Us

Day two of the Singapore Fashion Festival:

I honestly did not expect these.
Freaking long waiting hours and Diva-sh MALE models. Yup my first shift for Salvatore Ferragamo was quite a nightmare! I came promptly at 4pm....waited till 830pm till i select a model and see its outfit....the show started at 945pm!!!! Like WTF right!?!? Wats the point of usking us to come so early to do basically mothing and wait and wait and wait even more? Somemore do last min things which i hate!

I honestly think the Ferragamo team isn't organized enough. My model's shoes were missing and it took them one freaking hours to find the replacement! I can farking do that in 10 flat! And the funny part was my model (Jonathan) couldn't fit in the shoes (at least 1 1/2 size too small) so there he was struggling like mad and screaming in pain while i stood at the side smirking in glee. Hhmph....he deserves it lah!

Here's the reason why:

First of all he's THE FIRST bitching male diva i've ever met in my entire life! He like totally beat estar in that category! And sooo totally beat my own cussing record!! haha.

Anyways the whole time he was scolding vulgarities like " i dunno what the FUCK i am doing here!!!!" or I dunno the FUCK why i waited so long and i wanna go home!" etc etc.

Like why are u soo pissed sia at least u are paid...im not OK! U think im ur freaking maid is it!?!?

Basically he's like freaking mad lah always MIA i cant find him for his fittings, i need to run after him to remind him THRICE to carry his bag which is part of the outfit. He's always running around like a clown on dope. (which i have a nagging feeling he IS on dope! Die bitch!!!!)
Sial lah i almost wanted to pull his ear back to place but thought twice cuz he's too tall and strong! Ah whatever i should haven taken his naked pix and disfigure his "member" as revenge! haha..........................................

Lili cole looks exactly like wat i imagined. Tall...skinny....that cute face...flaming red hair....she's quite friendly lah but i dun dare take a pix with her cuz i was too shy and too pissed off! hmm next time perhaps.

Snakes, owls,rabbits were present for the Ferragamo show cuz Safari was their theme. Interesting huh!

In my dreams, my future fashion show will have harps and opera singers at the background.
Wif acrobatic angels at the ceiling.
The catwalk will be sprayed with mists and the gates of heaven will be the backdrop.
everything will be pure white!
My models however will be dressed in contrasting black!
With a gothic theme so they looked like they are released from hell to be reincarnated as angels. Heh.

P.s- Sigh..i dun think i can ever get used to being surrounded in a roomful of gorgeous people even if i wanted to....

my parents may be getting me a lappy this coming monday!!! Yippeee......

so far im looking at this Acer laptop cuz its the cheapest on the market! $1198 40GB and DVD playable....and all the other stuff which i dun understand.....
i might be getting the external hard disk drive $135 for 40GB...cheap right!?!?! people go sim lim square if ya wanna get really freaking cheap IT stuff...haha...i bought my Creative Zen at only $315 there compared to Courts, Harvey Norman etc which costs $365......

sigh my tutor just briefed us abt our assessment.....double sigh......so stress deadlines are freaking everywhere...help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SFF Briefing

so yesterday i went to the briefing.....saw an old time "friend" there.....haha...erm "unfortunately" were did not do the same job together...so...haha...estar will know what im talking about..haha....

ok its kinda tough to describe wat me job scope is here..but in short, i think we'll be assigned per model per dresser thingy..and erm we are supposed to help them dressed up super chop-chop (duh but of course!!)....erm.....take care of the garments......erm.....make sure that the shoes go with the dress....etc etc etc....totally remind me of the maids in the reinassance era..u know where the maids gotta have to pull the strings of the ladies corsets blah blah..haha...im doing something like that!! worse off is that we are not paid....maids are better off! haha...

anyways they (the organizers) keep emphasizing how thankful they are that we volunteered...blah blah...watever zan will be ok if zan is fed and well taken care off....but of course Zan i most happiest if Zan see beautiful girls and boys and extremely beautiful clothes.........

i'll be working for Ashley Isham....Diane Von Fer (something!! haha)....Missoni.....salvatore Ferragamo...Lancome and some tangs and soo kee stuff...a lil bit disappointed i couldnt make it for JPG and Triumph...

anyways i will be taking a whole lot of pix...cuz im using this festival as an assignment for our project.....

so lets cross fingers and hope Zan get a glimpse of her dream man...haha...

Movies u shld watch in this lifetime or next:

contributed by Debs:
-The English Patient
-Kill Bill.....i dun like the 2nd one.....haha...
-Closer
-Ladder 49
-Brokeback Mountain
-Schindler's List
-Crash
-King Kong
-Moulin Rouge
-The french movie - AVery long engagement...or something...cant remember the name...
-Gladiator
-The Descent
-Saw (the first one...)
-LOTR trilogy...but of course...
-The sound of music
-Farenheit 9/11
-American Beauty
-SinCity
-Forrest Gump
-The Princess Bride
-Big Fish
-Stage Beauty
-Shakespeare In Love
-Almost Famous
-Sideways


hmm...i think there are more....but these would rate as classics dun u think? Anyways they are based biasly of my favourites! haha...

Brokeback Mountain

I left the cinema with sadness on my back. I mean, I love the show. Its been so long since a film touched me so. The last was Sin City. But why do I feel so much dread and melancholy at the same time? What I know is im a reformed movie-freak. No more crappy movies for me. I rather watch thought-provoking arthouse flicks like these than Final Destination etc.

I was actually rooting for them to get together in the end even though I know its impossible. The movie started real slow and im beginning to wonder how the hell two GUYS can fall in love surrounded by sheep and mountain!!? Haha. (Walter said it is most probably due to the excessive drinking and the cold and that's why they often hugged! Haha..) But I believe realistically that they are both lonely and long for love or something like that. The most memorable scene for me was when they finally meet after 4 long years and they started to hug and kiss like as if they need air to breathe. So touching I tell ya!!!

Sometimes I wonder why love has to always be so complicated. To hide like that for years seems so painful. If love can transcend colours and race and personality then sex should not be excused. I have newfound respect for gays now. No more gay jokes and no more sexism.

Heath ledger gave a stellar performance. His best so far. (Yes I've watched most of his films and trust me they are not so fantastic..haha). If I become President of the world one day, I will make a Bill that every actors in the world should pass drama class with an A1 before they can act in any movies!!! Anyways I think Jake Gyllenhall deserves an award too. His frank, angry, love/sex-deprived character blends really well with Heath's broody, depressing macho-man.

I cant wait to watch Transamerica.

An orgasmic 21st Birthday!

Well well well....im sincerely impressed! To think my friends would actually throw a surprise mini birthday bash for me!! Haha I love u guys!!!!

11:45pm (8th march 2006):
Estar called.
Me thought he wanna wish me a Happy Birthday.
Then he asked where I am.
I said I'm outside on my way home.
Then estar frantically said he's directly under my block with Huiyun and Stanley with a cake!!
SURPRISE!!!
Hahaa..Apparently he assumed me was at home but I was actually outside with walter. Haha.So me hurriedly took a cab to meet them. So freaking paiseh sia made them wait like that!

12:10am:
Finally reached home!
Met them under the block and apologized profusely!
Phew thank god they were not really mad! (I hope eh...hehe).
So estar actually took the liberty to baked me a choc cake. Love the choc fudge!!
When its present time, they took out this huge black paper bag with a card that says "For raunchy or lonely nights" with freakish drawings on them.
Haha me thought they bought me lingerie and wondered how the hell they guess my size.
But hell no...they actually gotten me a farking vibrating-dildo-whip thingy!! Haha cool! Better then I thought!!!
The best present so far lah! Haha. Cuz it makes Zan a happy woman!
Haha if only it comes with rechargeable batteries eh.............

Huiyun whipping me into shape! hehe...

Now who says my ass is big? haha....

My 2nd birthday cake.

Walter and me celebrated me bdae at East Coast park.

We completed The Lost World game together! WooHoo how cool ah we eh!....

The two person bike that we rode. So fun....

im so damn freaking farking exhausted i tell ya....assignments after assignments aaarghhh its even worse than NP im telling ya. Its costlier also...spent tens of dollars min for every project..haha..im accelerating to bankruptcy!!!

yes so tmw's my so called 21st bdae. Honestly the hype has gone down as my mood is not very good these few days. Too tired lah to think of a celebration and too broke to have one. hiya its just a birthday anyway. So me in sch now going shopping with mum later. she's gonna buy me a jewellery. initially she wanted to buy a gold one but i think its too tacky lah so i suggest we go perlini silver lorz. maybe i can psycho her buy me some tops from topshop and dorothy perkins which is nearby! haha....

ok if u guys wanna know, here's my wishlist for this year:

1. To suddenly see thousands of dollars in my bank magically!!!

2. To lose weight! haha...working on it!

3. May all my friends and family be healthy and happy for the entire year!!!

4. May Walter have more nights off! haha...

5. Oh and may my parent's business do well so i can finally ask for more money! haha...

6. Good grades!!!! .....No..... GREAT grades!!!!

Yup thats all...now who says Zan is such a materialistic bitch huh! =)

Im looking forward to rub shoulders with the many models, celebs, designers etc in the upcoming fshion festival.
Jon jonsson especially cuz my bdae wish last year was to get a hug and it wasnt fulfilled. So....this year im GETTING my wish okay! hohoho....well in his blog he claims that he's coming mid march so obvious lah he's attending the SFF...but i do hope i eventually bump into him cuz im only volunteering 5 out of the 10 days. thats a 50% chance eh..haha..whatever!

Hi-Fat Low-Life

im sick and tired of people saying i've gained weight blah blah blah... u people stupid or what i have mirrors at home okay i know i gained the pounds so u people dun have to rub salt in my wounds by reminding me...This is IT! im sick im sick im sick whats wrong with being overweight?!?! HUH is it a sin?!?! Did we suffocate the rajaratnam guy by sitting on him?!?! did we eat ur dinners that u dun have dinners to eat?!?! why do we get all the crap?!?!? aargh..

im trying my best to stick to my routine of eating my basic 3 meals a day. food does not interest me anymore....i can eat just one meal and be contented. i think eating is a waste of time which i rather sleep or do my work which seems neverending. Im no anorexic or bulimic or any of those eating disorder thing ok so stop pestering me to eat more after saying im FAT! it doesnt help.

im sick and tired of finding clothes in spore that doesnt fit. everythings like XXXSSS or something. u expect my ass to squeeze into an M? thats like squeezing an elephant into Kate Moss's dress. IMPOSSIBLE!!!!

i know i need to exercise. i think i do regular walks. does walking 1/2hr a day everday considered exercise? i dunno...i know i love long walks...i thought if i eat less i can burn less right? apparently its not enough darling....mystically some Fat genie did their magic wand on me when im asleep cuz babe i have NO IDEA where the pounds come from.

So the moral of the story is...im gonna start exercising!!! Running and running and running. My goal is to lose at least 5kg and subsequently another 5kg in this year alone! HAH! in the meantime im sticking to my no-food diet and we shall see who wins! DOUBLE HAH!!!!

Attention to all who wishes to VOLUNTEER (i.e. unpaid worker) for the Singapore Fashion Festival 2006.

Ok since im too lazy to type I shall copy and paste the infos I have.


Singapore Fashion Festival 2006 (FF06) Brought to you by Singapore Tourism Board
24 March - 2 April 2006
The Tent at Ngee Ann City


THE MOST EXCITING FASHION FESTIVAL IN ASIA FOR INTERNATIONAL AND LOCAL SINGAPORE DESIGNERS, RETAILERS AND THE PUBLIC AT LARGE

Introduction
Asia Pacific's most exciting fashion festival in Asia for international and local Singapore designers, retailers and the public at large is ready to dress up the region from 24 March to 2 April 2006. Building on the last year's success, organizers expect in excess of 50 events to be scheduled. It will boast an enthralling and eclectic range of events featuring the best trend-setting looks from high-end designers and local labels to international fashion brands.

The Festival also offers tourists and Singaporeans a stunning world-class fashion experience, with a purpose-built tent venue that will be located at Ngee Ann City's Civic Plaza. This will once again become the Festival's 'Fashion Central' and will be equipped with an arrivals foyer, photographers' pit and an international media centre, all to facilitate trend-setting grand galas through to intimate salon shows.

From catching the latest trends hot off the Spring Summer catwalks of the world to new fashion inspirations and the chance to purchase these new looks, the Festival has established itself as a major event in the calendars of influential retailers, brand owners, fashion insiders, the press and shoppers at large. The schedule of collection shows will showcase the latest Spring Summer 2006 looks and other "must-haves" of the season. There will be a particular emphasis on showcasing ranges from luxury designer brands, cult & "underground" fashion names with international reputations to high-street fashion, emerging designer labels and regional/Singapore designers.



Singapore Fashion Festival 2006
Volunteer Program

JOB OUTLINE
1. Pre-Production and Backstage Production
This role requires people who have strong interests in event production/ fashion show production/ styling. We will need volunteers to work directly with show production staff/ designers/ brand managers/ stylists etc. The time commitment will depend on which show you are working on and when you are available. It will require more time commitment than any other role, and volunteers will be required from the March 14 - April 3.

Full training will be provided.


2. Dressers

This role involves working backstage before/during and after the fashion shows. It involves dressing the models, assisting in pre-show production and post-show pack up. This is a crucial role, and the time commitment will be for no less than 2 of the 10 show days (between March 23 - April 2). You can nominate 1/2 days if necessary.

Full training will be provided.


3. Ushers

This role is concerned primarily with Front of House operations. Ushers will be required to assist guests to their seats, assist in room turnaround, and to be a public representation of the Festival.

What do you get?
Each volunteer will receive a free SFF T-Shirt, and will be provided with complimentary daily meals. All volunteers stand a chance to win prizes at the Volunteers Appreciation Party at the end of the Festival.


Im participating! Woohoo!! Those interested can go to their website or ask me to email u the form. Im gonna ask for dresser cuz im sick of doing Pre-Production and Backstage Production stuff all the time. Moreover im using the chance to be surrounded by beautiful models in the same room as me!!! Casanova doesnt even stand close! Haha.

Speaking of models, this particular model named Lily Cole will be coming to Singapore. Okay if u guys read fashion magazines like the bible then u can DEFINITELY recognized her. She's like everywhere lorz. Something like the next Kate Moss but to me is more prettier. So im gonna watch out for her. Cant wait!



Lily Cole and Gemma Ward. Gemma ward is i think more prettier lah. Both have the ethereal look and appears like they just jumped out of a reinassance painting to the 21st century!

I kinda like the ferry/ship lights. Its very enchanting. Especially when im at the esplanade where I can stare at those light-up cute lil bum boats for hours at end. Haha. This is taken in East coast though....

Look what I made these poor fellas do! Volunteered to strip naked for Madame Zan! Where's my whip when I need them eh? Woohoo.....I think I should set up a cabaret for men in Singapore. I'll surely be rich! Most importantly I'll make them wear masks cuz no offence but Singaporean men are no good lookers! Haha. Its all flesh parade and sky high sex quotient! YEAH BABY!!

Madame Zan is proud to declare that the very sexy very hunky male second on the right is all hers and hers alone!! He's her toy and is not available for rent! So see but no touch okay!

p.s- I've got really graphic aka half naked pics of camp boys in their underwear. Haha walter took them when he's in camp. I'll post them up asap so u ladies can drool over. If it doesn't work, then there's still jon jonsson.........................

"Rose among Thorns"

Ok this is my theme for the turf club competition. Duh the name itself describes what i based my garment upon. Took me more than 3 hrs yesterday to finish up my draft, design components, model and colours. Aargh..so much effort made...last minute work really sucks when the deadline is today! haha...

Ok estar these are the designs of my dress. haha i know its COMPLETELY different from what we discussed and what i initially wanted. yeah and the "song kok" hat with lace i totally axed. Cuz i found out many of my classmates doing the same type of design so i did something different. Sigh...i came to class and to my dismay i saw really fantastic designs from my classmates and even from other classes. somemore we supposed to do accesories which i did not do...double double sigh... so i think my chances of winning or even be in the top 15 is a definite NIL. haha..

Brief description of garment: A wrap satin or polyester dress. Bustier and the fabric will be tightly wrapped at the nape of the waist. It will be cinched to a bouquet of folded roses and with sunburst pleats cascading at the back and peek-a-boo at the front.
I know its supposed to look lime green at the bustier and maroon/hot-pink with the skirt but my colouring skills not very good lah. Somemore cant afford to use the markers which costs $5.50 a pop. so just use colour pencils lorz...the effects not so good leh but bo pian...

Estar yes this is the "hat"! haha...its like a dark choco brown butterfly with "thorns" all over the head. its not really like a hat lah more like a hairband as its wrapped with a string around the forehead. aiyah whatever lah....

a close up look at the hat. my handphone pixels not so good so all the pix kinda blurry.. the model has the "Avril Lavigne" eyeshadow! haha....

U guys wanna join there's still time?!!! Just draw a garment with following descriptions like i did and come out with a theme. Can be for either sexes. Fully accessorize. Equine-related. Its open to public. CLOSING DATE: 20 Feb 2006 at 6:00pm.

15 will be shortlisted. Those shortlisted will be given a budget of $400 as allowance for materials.

Ist prize- $1200, a cert and a pair of return economy tickets to paris by singapore airlines.

2nd prize- $800+ cert

3rd prize- $500 + cert

4th-15th prize- $200 (x12) + cert

any of u guys interested and done ur work just pass it to me lah and i'll help u pass it to my sch. I know its juz around the corner but u can do it over the weekends... Estar u try lah i lend u my colour pencils..haha...u'll never know lorz....

I made a sizeable mistake by catching the movie Casanova.

Not even the ultra-hot Heath Ledger could save this movie. Aargh I wasted my precious 7 bucks on something that was SUPPOSED to ENTERTAIN me but instead bore me to tears. I was expecting sex sex and more sex (hello he's the famous Casanova leh who claimed he bunked god knows how many hundred babes). Naked ladies and boobies and all that jazz u know. Instead there were lame dialogues and even more lame acting. Sienna Miller should just quit acting lah and keep her day job. That is posing on the red carpet is what she does best. Like a more chic Bai Ling. The end of the movie brought such sweet release to an extremely mind-numbing conclusion. Very predictable.

p.s- I know friends told me im quite harsh when I pass judgment on a movie. But hey, I have watched hundreds or even thousands of films under my belt so I know my "good" and "bad". So trust me k! haha.
Now I wanna mention the reason for my presence to this movie. HEATH LEDGER!!!!!!! Had a crush on him several years back when he acted in the movie "10 things I hate abt you". He's the macho brooding good looker and his presence begged me to harbor a serious infatuation then. Ok that movie not so nice lah. Just like Knight's Tale. Erm actually even "The Brothers Grimm". But hey its not wrong to drool over him right? Whatever it is, he's in my top ten list of guys to date for my Plan B. And im gonna go watch Brokeback mountain one of these days. I think man-on-man action is really HOT. Haha I confess, I think Gay men are SEXY SEXY SEXY. But NEVER Elton John k! haha. So look out for my review on Brokeback.

(p.s- Its R21 that movie and im 21 only in march so I guess Im just gonna sneak in! hehe.)

That sneaky rat

I just found out this piece of fascinating news from dad. He believed that my aunt's maid have been subtly stolen money from my aunt. Initially she didnt suspect someone stole her cash cuz she thought she have misplaced them. Then one day my dad said she put a whole wad of cash like 2000 plus in her drawers and the next day she found out that 200 bucks were like lost!!! She then began to suspect the maid when my other aunt (who the maid lives with) complains of missing money too. Because so obvious the only 2 people who often wander around my aunt's room is my grandma and that sneaky rat! Adding to the fact that my grandma actually searched the maid's pants secretly and found out $20 dollars folded into small pieces tucked in a hidden pocket! Haha drama right?!

Ok this is funny k! so my aunts and uncle and grandma and practically the entire household began to form a devious plan to capture the maid red-handed! What they did was they set a mouse trap. They purposely put $240 in my aunt's drawers and had their serial numbers written down. Now they are waiting for their bait! Haha..my dad said if she didn't take it today my aunt will put in MORE cash to tempt her! Haha. I cant wait to hear the updates from my dad! So far my aunt roughly calculated that the maid had stolen $400 plus from her liao. This bitch shall be deported immediately to wherever she comes from man if she were caught!
Karma do your work!

HOORAY I'VE SURVIVED VALENTINE's DAY ALONE!!!!

the day started really bad yesterday. Not enough sleep cuz of assignments, stress cuz deadlines is around the goddamn corner and most suckily, all alone on V-day. (yes yes zan is still upset..but hey! i survived it ain't i so here's a pat on my bacK!) anyways, the first thing when i reached my class i was greeted so cheerfully by me classmates and they started handing each other sweets and chocs etc. Wah love is definitely in the air babe! embarrassed me came empty handed. so that kinda suck.

Then sewing was a torture. Sew unpick sew unpick. AAARGGHHH...bloody hell can never get sewing right. I embarrassed my parents as they apparently are very good tailors! yes they opened a fashionhouse before in Queensway shopping centre (then the place was super hip cuz there's only a few shopping centres in singapore). Apparently they self proclaimed they are good so hah the genes definitely stops here!!! However sadly for them due to mass production and cheap exports to retail outlets and departmental stores they are forced to close down.

okok back to topic. yesterday i was sitting down in the bus and this woman carrying a HUGE bouquet of roses was standing beside me and her BL:OODY flowers are Farking IN MY FACE LOR!!! aaargghhh....i almost nauseated.

shucks i gotta go cuz my fren wanna eat luch and go liao..goddamnit i'll continue later.

Oh my god ok I have got so much to crap about:

First things first, its an overdue HAPPY BIRTHDAY HADDAD! Hehe. 20th huh? Not a teenager anymore eh. So I wish ya all the best in ur studies and may all ur wishes come true. And may you and debs live happily ever after! So you better take good care of Debs or else! (Zan tighten her fist) haha.
Oh btw his sis place was F@$%#*king cool lah. So jealous u guys went in the Jacuzzi after I left! Penthouse ok! After seeing the place it makes me more determined to work my ass off to afford a crib like that. My goal is by the time I reach 30 I MUST have my own house. Either that or marry a BLOODY RICH old dying man with a handsome son. You know, take the old man's money and scandal with the son. Geddit? Haha. No joke babe.
Debs/ Cheryl I want the candid pix leh. Got reach 1000 this time anort? Lol. Post it up ur blogs or friendster so I can copy and paste hehe. Eh next time I wanna join u guys if u wanna slack at penthouse again hahaha. This time round no more bbqs, just order pizza or Mac cuz dun wanna wait 3 hrs for dinner again! Haha.

Next I would like to comment on the Torino Olympic figure skating thingy. Im burning my nights off watching them as they starts at 2am and ends ard 5plus. Why so motivated? Lets just say watching handsome (well most of them anyways) men in tights makes all my dreams to reality! Haha. I envy their flexibility sia. Spins, jumps, dance sequence, steps all looks so confusing and tough. I remember that one time me siblings and cousins and I would go to Jurong east skating rink week after week after week without fail. Not that I became an expert or anything. It just feels so free to skate or even bike. With the wind blowing my hair, its like im flying or something. Remember estar we went skating with Bee and iqbal in pri 6 or something? Haha that was fun I remember till now leh. I remember also paying so much money to the jukebox so I can skate to the sounds of Spice Girls and Backstreet Boys! Haha those were the days huh. Anyway back to the main topic. Guys in tights. Yes I find them extremely sexy next to thongs. You know what they say abt men who can stretch eh. Hehe. Dirty me. But of course lah they must have the right physique or else they look like stuffed turkey haha! Oh and too much crystals on tights makes them look like dancing Christmas trees!

Ok actually I wanna bitch more abt my sch but cant cuz me need to do me work.

Out for now. And enjoy the pix cuz i sure did! haha...

U know the joke about valentine's day?

It goes something like "Knock knock"

"Who's there?"

"Valentine"

"Valentine who?"

Silence.


I know its not funny right? Well it never intended to be. There will be no "Who" or "whom" for me this year. U know what the depressing part is? I will no be getting any bouquet this year! WAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!

Those who think valentines day is a marketing gimmick I beg to differ. It's a day when guys are FORCED to treat us ladies with respect, shower us with gifts and an all expense paid day. That includes dinner, drinks, shopping, taxi (cuz u cant carry a bouquet in the bus or mrt right? It'll be all squashed!) and also hugs and cuddles and kisses and soooo many more. Im no sucker of course but u think lah these kinda things doesn’t happen to mortals like me all the time. It seems that one special day of the year, almost all human became xtra sensitive and xtra nice! Especially boyfriends or else they face the wrath of jealous girlfriends. FORCED? So what? Just call me a sadist but at least I have the dinner to make me sleep at nyte! SATISFIED. Haha.

So the joke falls on me this year. No date and extremely broke. Im honestly annoyed that walter have to be in camp on that day instead. Although I may NOT look like I am but I REALLY REALLY AM ! I loved what we did last year. So touched when he made me the first handmade gift. Half a dozen of white lilies and a love song dedication at Harry's Bar made the topping even more sweeter. Dreamingly......sigh......

***SNAP BACK TO REALITY ZAN***

Whatever it is we made a pact not to celebrate it this year. Just like Christmas. Just like New Year. I think celebrating it a week earlier or later are just not the same.

On Tuesday, February 14, 2006, Valentine's day, u will never spot Zan at the following places:

-Esplanade
-Orchard
-night safari
-sentosa
-botanical gardens
-Suntec (couples tend to hang out there)
-All cinemas in Singapore
-all beaches in Singapore
-Public transport. (I will be wearing shades. Im allergic to the sight of couples with bouquet of flowers acting all lovey-dovey.)


Till then do not buy me flowers cuz u pity me. Im not dead yet.

Me took this pix off xiaxue's blog.

Im fuming mad jealous over her bling bling makes me blind hp. aarghh..and she got it done for free?!?

haha my phone have scratches and dents and bumps and everything that is to uglify a phone. Blame me for my lack of care and my buttery fingers. Everything i touch literary turns to ash! HAH!

Nonetheless i love my phone to bits! Afterall its my dream phone...like everything else even though it ugly its still my baby k!

Till then...im saving up to have mine decorated too...any donations will be gratefully accepted! ;)

Yearn turns to Anger, Anger turns to Hate.

I have a confession; I suck at being a half Chinese. Being born and bred half-half isnt as merry-merry as it should be. My friends keep saying wah im so lucky and stuff but to me its all shit! Do I embrace my Chinese roots? Hell yeah but my parents (esp mum!) seems to be ashamed of it. She said Chinese people do this lah Chinese people do that lah all the bull she dun believe. Eh coming out of her own cheena mouth. Partially embarrassing and hilarious I gotta admit. Lol. Needless to say I dont know Jack about Chinese customs.

My "reunion dinner" was a bowl of fried noodles. Shared with walter. Filled with taugeh. AArrgh! I detest taugeh! More than Zhang Zi Yi! Or Zi Yi Zhang!
Babe if u wanna do the American thing, pick an American name lah. Like Jessica/Kate/Ashlee Zhang or something. Bleurgh!

Blah Blah blah so I believe/assume everyone have already known or understand how dysfunctional my family is so I do not wanna tax anyone by repeating what i have said last year abt Chinese New Year. To recap, last year and this year its STILL the same!! Im still angst im still broke. (oh btw I think Chinese ppl are more generous with their ang pows! True right?)

So on behalf of my family, I wanna wish all Chinese out there a happy prosperous new year. And when I mean prosperous I mean earning big bucks by means of work or lottery (they deserves it, all the queue and endless disappointments! hehe!)
And then share the love....................................

"western beauty" - Marcia Cross

VERSUS


"oriental charm" - Gong li

Both women in her 40s. Still gorgeous still talented. Bree has always been my fav desperate housewife. what a waste she didnt won any award despite being nominated cuz she deserves one. Be my mummy Bree?!?!?!?!?!?!

Gong li has been around for years but me never ever took notice of her. However after seeing her in Memoirs i was enchanted. By her beauty and her acting skills of course! She's the epitome of a physicotic (right spelling??) bitch! haha. Be my mentor Hatsumomo!?!??!?!?!

http://www.youtube.com/?v=iQLm6YMBuPM

ok guys check this out! its a lil m18 but there is moral behind the story ok! it may take a while to download but it all worth it!

enjoy!

Zan feeling satisfied after eating a feast at Ghandi's! Yum yum....









so trigger-happy me took this at Little India. It was the opening of Apollo restaurant new branch...there was a mile long (haha well it looks like it) of congratulatory flowers outside the restaurant. There must be some very happy florist out there! haha...ka-ching!

Ritz apple strudel for dessert!!! The strawberry's equally delicious!!!

so at nyte we had a wonderful dinner under the stars!!! haha...ok we actually went to bishan park to eat maggie for dinner..walter had these camp stuff he got from ns...haha...so we decided it'll be undeniably romantic to eat like cavemen..haha...survival ok!!!








haha me trying to light up the fire..aaarghhh...i think if i join survivor i'll confirm die from starvation...

after dinner we played sparklers and i felt i was transported back to the days when im still young and there is nothing in the world i won't do to trade back my youth.......sigh..........

Fark my school's on FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha...kidding lah....it was a fire drill and it came with faux smoke and all that jazz...its actually quite fun lah cuz we did all the works thats needed to make the fire so believable so we screamed and screamed and packed our bags and ran for our dear life!! haha....well something like that lah....so among all the drama i had the time(like always) to take this beautiful pix of Becky! haha..and since we've already packed our bags our tutor actually dismissed us for the day! hah! sweet!

so here's what happened a few days ago which made me feel really guilty.

i was at the bus interchange waiting for my bus when i saw her. (no...not the other HER estar! haha) She was a close friend of mine in secondary school. Were very close for 3 years when we eventually move away from each other. I didnt fancy her lifestyle then and till now i dun. I shall call her R. here if i may ya. So what happened was i didnt saw her initially so i sat at this sit beside her. When i eventually did recognize her, she saw me too and i think she gave me a faint smile. i gave her a weird look and turn my head away. i was too shocked for words. i didnt turn back and i totally ignore her the entire ride. i could sense her awkwardness but i could not even muster a "Hello how are you"....

aaaarghhh...what am i supposed to do then? we didnt fight and break up..we just went our seperate ways naturally. last i heard she got married and had a baby...its not that im like so proud or wat but it just seemed so hard to even ask her how her life is u know? we had a past...maybe the past just stays in the past ya?
however this does not stopped me from feeling extremely ashamed of myself.

here's my 2 cents worth on this movie;

I went to the movie with high expectation as im a fan of Jennifer Weiner (author of the book of the same name). However it all fall flat. The movie is too long and whiney and the actors are not expressive enough. Who said Diaz can act? humphh! Its like Jennifer Aniston in Derailed. Stick to ur day job and just make us laugh babes. Oh did i mention Diaz has a great body? sigh...those who just wanna watch her half naked most of the time i strongly recommend this show. The only saving grace of the show is by this old granny whom i dunno the name. No not their grandma lah. Its this bitchy granny...she's the one with great one-liners! hah...

If ur gonna pay $19 to watch the movie like i did then just buy the book lah.

2.5/5 popcorns. (1 for the bitchy nenek, 1 for the script, 0.5 for the showcase of hundreds of amazing shoes..)

a new year a new start eh!!

what fantabulous ride i've been thru the past few months.
sch's great me results not bad.
still broke still angst.
what made me start doing me blog again?
lets just say i have many friends on the web.
i want UPDATES and i wanna give them my updates.
i miss them lah.........
(yes my NP gangbang...haha...)

Keep in touch yeah!!!

=)

Went to some Indo restaurant yesterday cuz it was my gram's 69th birthday. So finally after many years my family actually sat down and had dinner together in the proper manner. Felt pretty weird lah having to share food with everyone blah blah. I feel like im sinking into isolation day by day. Firstly, I found out that I hate family dinner. I hate sharing a dish with so many people. Let me get this straight, Zan does not share food. Only when she offers then u are eligible otherwise u are not encouraged. This applies with drinks. Ya ya u guys can say all things about me but im just like that k. Then I found out that I hate birthdays. Its farking overrated. I think people who celebrate it are people who’s ego are as huge as the universe cuz it is an excuse for them to behave like some freaking emperor. They just want people to worship them and wanna hear compliments abt them. Haha shameless...

Hmm...I think I stepped over the line here ya...shut up before u get into any more trouble Zan...

For me, birthdays are to commemorate mothers all over the world. My mum had to tahan 10 months of me in her womb, excruciating labour pains and subsequently the torture of giving birth. So on my birthday, it does not belong to me, but to my mum.

Bitchiness aside, the only good thing that comes out of birthdays are the fresh cream birthday cakes. Hahaha...

OMG did I just saw Jon Jonsson on TV again? He's in that Villa Wellness programme!! Saw the damn trailer about prince charming blah blah... and he's in a bath tub with those girls..with his top off!! DAMN DAMN DAMN...why the hell didn't I know about the audition for this show? It's all about fat girls losing weight right? Hello!...IM FAT!!! I WANNA JOIN THE SHOW AND BE IN A BATHTUB WITH JON JONSSON!!!

Aaaargh...ok maybe not lah...I'll wear my clothes cuz if he sees Zan in a bikini he'll go blind...
haha...in a bad way lah of course...and I dun want him to go blind...I want him to see me...U know what I'll say to him if he ever see me?...I want to look into his eyes and say "You are the epitome of beautiful" and "If I am ever gonna lose my eyesight, the last portrait I'll draw is yours…"
( Actually a month ago if u ask me this qn what if I go blind I'll ans that I'll draw walter's face. But now...no way am I ever gonna draw him again...hmmph...)

Ok I just watched an episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S where Joey uses a Thesaurus to make his letter look more cheem. Very hilarious I tell ya. And since im bored out of my wits I decided to play with the Thesaurus in Microsoft words.

Original text:

Zan had a rough day today. All she did was eat and sleep and wander around the house. It was very stressful for her as she kept thinking what she has to do next. In the end she decided to clean the house, do her homework, nag at her brothers and finally go day-dreaming.


Thesaurus text:

Zan had a brutal time today. Entirely she did was gobble and have forty winks and digress on all sides of the domicile. It was vastly taxing for her as she kept accepted wisdom what she has to do subsequently. Ultimately she unequivocal to immaculate the abode, execute her grounding, plague at her brothers afterward irrevocably go vagueness.


Haha its really fun though it doesn’t really made sense!!! Recommended for people who are REAALLLY bored.

BANG im dead!

Wah finally had my hair cut. Damn intense lah cuz me really wanted to do bangs but the condition of my hair are not suitable so I pondered for months. In the end I gave in cuz I couldn’t stand my current one anymore. Actually my classmate was the one who gave me the push when she asked me how long had I had my hairstyle and I realized that its been THREE bloody long years. I need a change, just like Jude Law!

People, please be a dear when u meet me on the streets and when u see my new do. Even if it looks bloody hilarious try not to laugh like there’s no tmw k. Read my previous post if u ask why.

So I gave him the present liao. Sad to say he did not like it. I meant, he did not said it openly but he did not said he like it either. Neither did he said he loves it nor said it is the sincerest, thoughtful gift he had ever received. The reaction was hearty laughters (yes he laughed so long even) and he even said that the portrait did not look like him. Not even close. Needless to say I was crushed. Never had I put in so much effort for a gift and those are the responses? To think the many drafts and ideas and hrs/weeks of preparing all went down the drain. At least lie lah. The disgusted face was pretty obvious. Worse was when he start criticizing. He has the cheek to ask me to draw him again during my third year and compare. What the fark right. Indirectly he is saying im lousy and unprofessional. Even worse was he showed me a black/white portrait of him taken in those machines and said if I do it exactly like that then nice. Lagi-lagi worse is he said wasted he never show it to me earlier then I can steal it and draw the replica and he pretend he doesn’t know. U tell me how I dun feel insulted and embarrassed and stupid. There are more but im too wasted to type.

Different artists do different things to a similar object k. So what if mine does not portray a perfect mirror image of him? In my eyes he looks like that. My interpretation of him is different from a machine. Im human and I see his flaws and perfections and that is how I draw.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Stupid but nonetheless true. Since he did not respect and appreciate it, I took it back. That is the only way I can have my ego returned. With promises of a normal, better gift. And of course after I tear up and told him I might throw it away, he begged that he wants it back now. But how could I? It is obvious he did it out of sympathy. So I stood firm and brought it home. Funny how heavy it felt when I carried it back. Where will it go now? Lets just say it is now stashed secretly in a dark corner of my wardrobe where it will never again see the light of day.

I had forgiven him but this will never be forgotten.

So yesterday I took a cab from yishun to ang mo kio to send walter the bbq things and I've been very "fortunate" to met this really "pantang" driver. As u all know it's the Hungry Ghost Festival and from the mouth of the donkey, "This is the month where the hell gates open and all the spirits are allowed to wander". U know, like a holiday or something. Then my bloody mouth have to tell him that Singapore must be pretty damn crowded lah for the spirits cuz its damn small and millions have died since the evolution of mankind. Then I continued by saying maybe they went overseas lah where the grass is greener and the plane ticket is free. WRONG MOVE ZAN!!! WRONG MOVE!!!

He began to then yap about why I must believe that this festival is ALL REAL and that he had friends of friends of friends of the uncle cousin dog owner thingy who had experienced some sort of poltergeist shit. Ok ok it is all scary so please shut the fark up. What makes it worse was he began saying things like," Its Hungry Ghost Festival and u guys can still bbq? U know people will be praying and the soot of the burning papers will likely kena the bbq food. And u know ah Chinese believes that blah blah blah blah...oh so here is ur destination...better tell ur friend to pray ah for the wandering ghosts...so it'll be $7.20 please...remember ok must respect...."

That's when im already out of the cab and had slam the door shut. Brrr...wonder which is scarier...ghosts or bitching taxi drivers.

this is the phone that me bro just got. A black motorola V3. Im jealous like shit now. It's such a "WOW" phone. But where am i gonna get $538?!?!?! U know how he got the money? From charity..the sch gave him $1000 to help him with his studies but he used it to get himself a damn nice bling. Lucky bitch......

Whats up with birthdays?!?
Today is my mum 56th birthday...yup she is old...funny how people always think that im the youngest in the family when in fact im the oldest when they look at my mum and dad...this is what happens if u start a family at 36 years old..hmmm......NAH!
Walter's birthday is tmw and i screwed up his present...haha...Zan when ur not an artist ur not an artist..no point forcing urself to be one....and boy am i regretting this....now i have no present and equally no cash...perfecto!

Gosh im getting worse with this blog thingy....absolutely no aim ..no direction....nothing to say...nothing to bitch.....oh my god im getting BORING! haha....

Bitch...hmm...bitch....so far so good im very contented with my life. Im actually pretty happy right now...currently doing fine in me studies..blah..blah....

Oh u know weijian (the ex-president of NP song-composing club) is in the semi-finals...im so happy for him...he's really talented and i think he'll go far in this industry. So people VOTE for him....

This is it! I soooo totally need to buck up with my blog posts....people like Xiaxue and co. are totally getting naked and getting more fans....Me? U guys wanna see me with me clothes off?!?! HAHA..not a chance people...bleurgh....

be back sooooon......

part deux....