Here is estar's and my take on today's Singapore Idol piano show. All done through SMS.

The ones in PINK is Estar's! haha yup and i know he HATES pink....haha....

first performance....

Chey not that power lah she.

She's really good lah....this time she's not that OTT. Anyways i think she's the better ones in the competition....

2nd performance.....

Judging from da 2nd crackhead than duh! haha

You dun need to be an expert to know that she sucks!!!! Haha eh ur fren is next!

3rd performance......

Haha another watever. Acting sweet haha..

Hmm...Hmm...How did she get in Singapore idol? haha...

I wouldnt b surprised if she killed ppl 2 get in. haha. Check out Emilee, the hot bitch frm devils (the bar btw not hell...hahaha..). If she is gonna suck than spore idol is gone man.

I think Singapor idol is gone from e beginning! So wats there to lose? haha.. So u voting for ur "fren"?

Haha duh NOT. But dats not wat im telling her haha...

4th performance.....

Oh my this one sucks too...sigh...

5th performance (this is Emilee...the hot bitch estar mentioned earlier....) Yucks... WRONG song!

Definitely! Argh wats wrong with everyone man haha...

Sigh spore idol is so gone....Again!.....who u think will go top 2?

Who cares anymore. Maybe da 2nd n da sheryl crow cow. If its gonna be a comedy might as well bring in da best of fools in...haha...

Haha ya lor! Since the king of clown is already in last week....

6th performance

Hmm dun you think she looks like a news presenter? Haha... wrong song!

(then somewhere in the song her sis face pops out....)

Da sister is f*cking hot though haha

She looks old ah.... Yeah her sis is hotter... hmmm this shld be a model competition... all looks no voice....

7th performance (FINALLY!!!)

(this point of time neither of us bothered to critic anymore... like how many "she sucks" can we repeat?....)

then he send the MAGIC sms...haha....

So when r we going KTV ah?

I miss you.

I really, really do......

Its almost 2am and im still awake....aaarrggghhh.....

because i reformatted my lappy i have to re-download the photoshop brushes...i've been searching and downloading for the pass 2 hrs now....gonna stop soon...

im not done with thomas wee's lame customer profile hwk....i dun wanna do it but he left me to no choice...if i dun do his hwk he's gonna either strangle me with his scrawny hands or slap me and leave a mark from his DIAMOND (we're still guessing how many carats) ring. Oh whatever!

i have to wake up at 7am later to meet up wif me groupmates.....

Debra's stupid culture research and mind-map......*bangs head to wall many many many times*... not done at all!!!!

Lily's soft-copy of theme motif. all to be done in photoshop and freehand!!! Lagi not done lor!!!!

All these to be ready within these THREE days!!! aaarrgghhhh.......

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thats me just banging my head onto my keyboard!!!!!!!!!!! thats how i feel to be sooo stupid for slacking for so long.... dumb ass biatch.......

oh....to cheer me up....all i need is too look at this pix....

Lily's research pix. Im doing on mermaids for my motif. I saw this and almost flip! Hehe my fav position!!! haha... oh and i think thats not how fishes procreate lah btw. Its just such a sexy pix.

i sooooo need SEX to release my happy hormones.....sigh......

Well here's one for all u PG folks. Cute disney mermaids!

Now here's ur milk and get outta here! haha......

Since i always potray myself as a sexually active person in here, its about time the blogskin should look "horny"...hahaha....love the red!!!!

You guys feel the love?!?..........

Abso-fucking-lutely!!!!

Gosh i am just done with Season one of Sex and The City DVD...Now i totally see the big picture and why this show is a hit!

Because they have answers to some really hard-core bang your head to the wall questions. Though i gotta admit, girls can really be dumb sometimes when it come to relationships and men. I know i am one, albeit smarter, and i know of people who are one.

Now put all those questions and answers and SEX together, u get a winning formula.

The sex part i like. I mean, not looking at them physically and get excited that kind. That i can get from porn. And Sex and the City aint a pornographic show.

It goes to show that women in their thirties dont have to be a wreck! Society doesnt expect us to be married and have kids anymore. Women can still be successful, beautiful, spendless and have a queue of willing horny men.
Just as long as we pay our taxes! =)

That said, my favourite character has got to be Samantha. Samantha is the energizer sex bunny who will bunk any men (straight or gay) as long as they have a P*nis! She is in her fourties yet she looked smashing ALL THE TIME! She has a PR company and hangs out in the best society. She talks about sex openly and is anti-relationship and has an ego as huge as her hormones. This woman has zest i tell ya.
i have never met anyone like that before and i hope i never will. Can u imagine what a biatch she is.
Yet i am afraid i will be like her. Honestly i see her as a mirror of my future. Cruel, angry and horny all the time. Now thats sad babe!

whatever it is, i strongly recommend this show. Only to the gals cuz guys naturally dun get it.
I dun know why? Hmmmmm......

Im watching season two as i speak. One season down, Five more to WISDOM! =)

Ding-Dong... rang the Wedding Bells

Since Becky and me are still in the holiday mood, we played the dressed-up games i talked abt in class....

So what if we did not do Lily's work?!?!?!?!?!?! ok fine im feeling really guilty now thus im doing massive research thats resulting in a MASSIVE headache!!!!!

Sorry i digress. Anyways we stumbled on one of the dressed up websites that allow us to dress the dolls in WEDDING DRESSES!!!

But of course Becky got really excited cuz of the cute gowns and the possibility she might be owning one in a few years time...hehe.... winks....

So our imaginery ran wild (funny we DID NOT talk of sex during this time! haha...oh we have grown up!)................................

hmmmmmm.................what can i wear in my dream wedding?!.......................

We are such a perfect couple... la la la la la la ...... im such a beautiful bride ..... lalalalala.......

Becky! who's the "lucky" man ah? hahahaha.....

Becky coos,"oooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhh........soooo cute!!!" Eh thats her flower-girl ok! haha..

Hey thats anime ME! im apparently involved in this imaginery fiasco (and cuz i forced her...reason is cuz i helped her pick her dress!! hehe...)

Why is Zan wearing a frou-frou cupcake??? Cuz:

1) Becky does not allow me to wear a RED or Black dress cuz she is wearing white. This is her wedding so she said so.

2) Becky does not want a loud dress to overshadow her gorgeous dress. This is her wedding so she said so.

3) Black is an unlucky colour. Red is to OTT.

3) This is her wedding so she said so.

Fine. Im beginning to think its a cute dress anyways. hehe. better than the rest which i saw.

Well dun expect to hear any wedding bells from Zan. Here's some condition a man have to fill if he wanna marry me.

1) Wedding dress by Oscar Da La Renta. I dun want any other ateliers k!

2) Custom-made shoes diamond/swarowski encrusted 2 1/2" heels from Manolo Blahniks.

3) Fly family and close friends to Venice for the wedding ceremony.

4) I dun want a huge wedding. Just a small ceremony. ABSOLUTELY NO under the block wedding!!!

5) Of course rent a villa for the wedding. What u think? Marry on a farm izzit? haha....

Nope this is not my dream wedding. THIS IS MY WEDDING!!! I dun expect less....yes call me spoilt or having my head stuck in the clouds...i dun care!! Cant afford it then u cant afford to marry me and thats the fact. Im tired of being poor all the time. IM NOT DYING POOR!!!! I can wait............

chants....I will not marry under my blk...i will not marry under my block.......

oh crap im staying up in the wee of the night just to play BARBIE!
oh not the real Barbie...i meant im hooked online playing the highly-addictive dressup games!!!

gals check out
www.dressupgames.com

if u were barbie deprived like me when u were younger, be prepared to lose a few hrs of ur free time exploring!!

I need sleep manz...........................

First i would like to thank my dearest for helping me get through the hard time. If u guys must know, my lappy got virus just a day after getting the internet. Talk about being unlucky eh! Thank God Walter's bro is a genius with the IT stuff so now my lappy is up and running again. Phew!

Secondly, lets talk about the World Cup. No. Lets talk about the GUYSSSSS who are involved in the world cup. To let my hormones run wild and free since its before bedtime, let me have a lil say about those sweaty, macho men who oozes HOTNESS with every single step of their musculine legs. Now who says a gal could not have her fun when the guys do eh?

Now just keep a lookout for.................................

Honey...dun lick ur lips......i'll lick mine!! Yum.

move over Jon! These are my new "Goals" (hah no pun intended!) for this month. Btw this is one of Italy's defender. Dunno his name. Dun care. Cute enough for my books is all that matters!

Btw the italian team has an abundance of real hotties for me to choose from! Everyone knows i have the hots for italian men. Guess which team im supporting this year! Hah no prizes for guessing... =)

Michael Ballack (Germany) is soooo last four years ago k! Move on.....

The Mexican team. The guy on the leftest is something-Marquez.... Wah lao i tell u...i want his child! haha..........

ok i think i better stop now lest people think im a psychotic S#X maniac.....

hmmmmm....food for thought.....its not illegal right for people to have fantasies? or will I get sued?!?!?!

shit and im already 21 years old......................

I hereby proclaim myself to be a member of the "Heartland Socialites"
To show my everlasting commitment, I will:

- Eat Macdonalds till my liver fail.
- Outrival in Tai Ti (Big Two) till my brain fail.
- Smoke till my lungs fail.
- Bitch till my tongue fail.
- Hear Estar bitch till my ear fail.
- Stare at Stanley till my eyes fail. ( And not cuz he's goodlooking k! Hahahaha!!!)

Subsequently i will die feeling i have never contributed to the society but be idle than an idealist.
Hooray.

Anybody wanna join the club?

ok peeps im back!!!

and this time im not going anywhere! (even if u want me to...)

why? Cuz zan has finally gotten herself and her new lappy THE internet connection. WOOOOOHOOOOO!!! baby!!!!!

now she's lying tummy first on her bed, sipping hot milo and munching on croissants while typing this! All in the comfort of her AIR-CONDITIONED room.

Yeah i know aircon only no biggies...BUT HELL IT IS FOR ME!!! me mum just got it repaired a few days ago. Not only is it cold, its farking freezing! caught dad leaving his room in the middle of the night to sleep on the sofa a few times! To think he's cold-blooded!! hah! Beat this antartica!!!

ok im gonna catch the results of spore idol. will comment or rather critic in due time...sneers...

wooooohooooo i'll end my 1st year in 2 weeks time. HAH!!!!

after reading estar's blog regarding his jogging experience, i think i wanna share mine too! unlike estar who jogs in the morning, im more inclined to jog extremely late at nyte! i'll prowl the streets from 1am onwards. i know u guys think im crazy right cuz im like a big fat juicy running bait for rapist. i assure u its safer than u think. the idea of running into a pontianak is i think much scarier and higher than into a sex maniac.

that said, the only thing that raises my neck hair when i jog at nyte is passing by those lil red chinese praying thingy. its scarier even when people actually burn incense and paper and the black ashes are blowing around by the wind. Imagine that! the idea of a lady in red or white (does it even matters?!?) with long rebonded hair perching on a tree definitely help to boost my motivation. the only time when i can walk is when a car (normally taxis....a bunch of them actually...proven that taxi drivers dun sleep!!! Freaky!) , ok when a car passes by. when out of sight, i'll start running and my eyes will only be allowed to look straight ahead. Not behind. Not Side. Not Down. And HELL NO NEVER UP!!!!!

i've yet lost any weight. its funny cuz the more u exercise the more hungrier u feel. Agree? haha DAmn..........

my second home

nope not school. its none other than Yishun Macdonalds!!!!!
im here on hours at end hanging out with the heartland socialites. slack, play cards, bitch....
im here on hours at end using the FREE internet.
im here on hours at end using the tables to do my illustrations or hwk. (cuz poor Zan has no tables and chairs at home...yes that pathetic! cuz too many barang lying around the house pisses me off!)

im sick of maconalds anything. Fries? YUCK! Double cheeseburger? Yuck! Lemonade? Yuck!! Beef fan-tastic!?! GAZZILLION YUCKS!!!!!
Macs were giving away FREE beef fan-tastic yesterday with every meal purchased. Why? Cuz apparently they sold a million of those gooey things. okay. congrats. now move on and ban it!!!

oh the mac staff is giving me creepy looks. like why this bitch seat here one corner never buy anything use her laptop. haha resident cheapskate!!!!! now go and sweep the floor and stop staring at me!!! U want my signature izzit? hmmph....

ok gotta go work now. life's a bitch when ur broke and still enjoy the socialite's lifestyle! HAH!

The Singapore Fashion Festival.

sigh it went by as quickly as it came. I made so many great acquaintances. touched so many beautiful/expensive clothes and models. i had a blast overall and i learnt as much as i needed to. i honestly am happy to find the kind of work i love and have the abilities to work for it in the future. i can definitely see myself doing fashion for as long as i want.

Bring on the bitches i dun care..........


im still pondering whether the dress or the model more beautiful......

If i cant have it then flaunt it lorz.....i heard these gowns costs at least $20k!!!! gulp i think i'll sew my own thank u very much.
i dressed the lil boy (middle) for island shop. he's so smart. ACS junior lorz.....i was so scared to dress him cuz he didnt wore any underwear (yes i saw IT! Tiny.....) and there were zips in his pants!

these were the only guys for missoni...Rocky, Fabio and Jonathan....their first outfit were swimwear...it was freezing lah so all of them were goofing around, jumping-jumping, do warm-ups....i asked farhan why they behaving like clowns and he said that they might be having some "reaction" to the cold...interesting! haha...

an angel and a wannabe..................

ok he's THE Jonathan. The male diva model i bitched about in my previous post.
Initially he didnt like me very well and vice versa. Hmmm...wat makes me take this pix with him?

Well lets just say he fell down the stairs the day before (hahaha GOD actually listens to my curses!!!) and i unfortunately have to dress him on that day cuz NO ONE ELSE wanna dress him...haha see where attitude brings ya. Ok back to the story. so he fell down and he wore shoes that day and he was wincing and struggling to walk. The curious soul in me asked him why he walk like that and why he wear the shoe in pain. He then said he fell down (trust me when i heard that my brain was actually CRYING IN LAUGHTER!!! *enters evil laughter*)

anyways i asked to see the wound..i may be evil but im not THAT evil k...he showed me and his sock were soaked with blood lorz and his stupid tissue were stucked to the wound lorz...eew!!!
At that point of time all grudges went flying away...he dun deserve to be in that kind of pain no matter how evil he was... i offered to get him the medic kit but he refused...i dun care lor and go find him one...ok here's the best part...I even help him with the bandages!!!!
HAH i couldnt believe im THAT nice...

After that u know what? he THANKED ME!! yes. HE THANKED ME! He even said "thanx for ya concern, i'll see you tmw". WTF!?!?! Now u thanked me?!? yOu DARE BITCH!!!! WAS IT THAT HARD TO SAY THOSE WORDS IN THE FIRST PLACE!?!?!

i didnt even say ur welcome i just stared and walk away! haha...yup thats what i did! u're rude to me once so dun expect me to me nice to you juz cuz i PITIED u....

So funnily the next day he was like super nice to me lah....haha....at the end of the day, i felt no reason to feel angry anymore...we were just too childish...so we made up and took that famous pix...haha....end of story!


i dressed this guy, Fabio, for missoni....he's so cute and has such a cute laughter!!!
REALLY i've never heard anyone laugh like him before....well anyway the shawl belongs to me and i had the excuse to borrow him that cuz it was freezing and he was wearing a bathing suit! heheh...im not washing it for some time...haha....

yes he's sooooo hot i cant stop kissing him...haha..

me and Rocky..everyone were crazy over him lorz...dunno wats the fuss...he's okay looking only...half philipino half brazillian...the babe on the left is half chinese half malay...haha...


haha me and farhan were really jumping when this pix was taken!! thats why cant see my face...

posing on the catwalk with darren

the wrap party....
champagne is officially me fav drink!!!! i drank too many flutes that nyte so i was really high and really drunk! haha.....overall the party was a blast....its the first time i was surrounded in a roomful of beautiful people....that u can never get in clubs! haha...

yay me won the top 10 "outstanding" volunteer award!!!!! $50 from Heeren....hmmm....haven been there for a year liao lorz....

so me and farhan walked down the catwalk with many many cheers and wolf-whistles from the crowd! haha so paiseh.....since im drunk and this is once in a lifetime thingy, i dun give a shit! afterwards we dragged people up the catwalk and dance...ala bar! haha.....

yes......im dancing wif jonathan alright! blame it on the champagne......hahaha.....he's like damn sloppy lah....where got people wear shorts and old t-shirt to a party!?! ur modelling fees not enough meh?! totally diff from the "posh" clothes he just wore a few hrs ago....

since i pity him dancing like a fool at one corner alone, i decided to jiggy beside him for awhile...well then i got bored.....so i left.....haha...he was still dancing.....i swear he's on dope k! he's like an energiser bunny that nyte.....
zan instinct is always right....

i cant wait for next year!!!!!!!!! ;)

Day three of SFF: Ashley Isham

Im telling ya right now im walking on cloud 9. Im so high right now cuz me got to DRESS JON JONSSON!!!!!!!!!!
Haha....yes im telling the farking truth!!! I got to dress him...meaning...saw him naked and all and touch his ahem...u know...haha...im not washing my hands I tell ya! Haha...

How lucky can a girl get!?!?! Jon has such a great body! All smooth and silky! Haha...so God was on my side and all his three outfits has pants without zips on them but with super complicated buttons! Ah bless Ashley Isham!

So he needed help in that area...soo...haha...a bit paiseh lah cuz accidently brush THAT for a few times and if I were him I would have thought me as a pervert! Haha...

Anyways he is all friendly and stuff telling me I’ve done a good job, encouraging me, smiling his captivating smile, his shyness etc. wah so much better than the bitch I have to dress the day before who just left w/o complimenting me! Now im totally anticipating for this Wed for Lancome. I hope I got the opportunity to dress him again although I know my chances is slim...but well...a year ago I was totally swooning over him...but now...haha I count myself to be a really lucky girl! Now what did I said about fate before hmm?!...........

Well i think Jon looks good in this...a bit gay lah but hah...that shirt took me soo long to button ok and the cravat was totally scratching me all the time. The other model made me damn paiseh lah when he said i keep doing doing doing the cravat but actually just excuse to touch his chest!!! i think i blush crimson red sia! Jon keep laughing and smiling but he's a man of lil words. very shy lah keep smiling at me looking at me. Everytime he look at me i feel like so scared something was on my face! Yup insecure Zan.....I call them my knights and thus they obliged with a picture! haha....my white knights.....the other model is Ashley's friend. he's nice so funny and flirty! my friends said he's gay....well...i think he's quite a cute gay! haha.....


i know im such a whore.....haha...but i cant help hugging him! His body is meant to be hugged and touch one ok! haha....Buns of steel....yummy!

Ok this model i think is much more better looking than Jon. However dun judge a book by its cover. My friend had the cheek to ask for his number and he actually gave it to her! And u know what? a few mins later i saw him cuddling/holding hands with a girl model whom i presumed is his gf. Oh what casanova.......

Jon's rack. Yup he had three whole outfit changes......i think Ashley a bit cuckoo cuz he dressed all the males with female looking clothes. Very Baroque/Rococo and some of the clothes made jon look like some ancient knight or something...damn damn dashing lorz....grinz....


Really gorgeous models! I love the mohawk but hate the scary oriental makeup! haha...

Sluts 'r Us

Day two of the Singapore Fashion Festival:

I honestly did not expect these.
Freaking long waiting hours and Diva-sh MALE models. Yup my first shift for Salvatore Ferragamo was quite a nightmare! I came promptly at 4pm....waited till 830pm till i select a model and see its outfit....the show started at 945pm!!!! Like WTF right!?!? Wats the point of usking us to come so early to do basically mothing and wait and wait and wait even more? Somemore do last min things which i hate!

I honestly think the Ferragamo team isn't organized enough. My model's shoes were missing and it took them one freaking hours to find the replacement! I can farking do that in 10 flat! And the funny part was my model (Jonathan) couldn't fit in the shoes (at least 1 1/2 size too small) so there he was struggling like mad and screaming in pain while i stood at the side smirking in glee. Hhmph....he deserves it lah!

Here's the reason why:

First of all he's THE FIRST bitching male diva i've ever met in my entire life! He like totally beat estar in that category! And sooo totally beat my own cussing record!! haha.

Anyways the whole time he was scolding vulgarities like " i dunno what the FUCK i am doing here!!!!" or I dunno the FUCK why i waited so long and i wanna go home!" etc etc.

Like why are u soo pissed sia at least u are paid...im not OK! U think im ur freaking maid is it!?!?

Basically he's like freaking mad lah always MIA i cant find him for his fittings, i need to run after him to remind him THRICE to carry his bag which is part of the outfit. He's always running around like a clown on dope. (which i have a nagging feeling he IS on dope! Die bitch!!!!)
Sial lah i almost wanted to pull his ear back to place but thought twice cuz he's too tall and strong! Ah whatever i should haven taken his naked pix and disfigure his "member" as revenge! haha..........................................

Lili cole looks exactly like wat i imagined. Tall...skinny....that cute face...flaming red hair....she's quite friendly lah but i dun dare take a pix with her cuz i was too shy and too pissed off! hmm next time perhaps.

Snakes, owls,rabbits were present for the Ferragamo show cuz Safari was their theme. Interesting huh!

In my dreams, my future fashion show will have harps and opera singers at the background.
Wif acrobatic angels at the ceiling.
The catwalk will be sprayed with mists and the gates of heaven will be the backdrop.
everything will be pure white!
My models however will be dressed in contrasting black!
With a gothic theme so they looked like they are released from hell to be reincarnated as angels. Heh.

P.s- Sigh..i dun think i can ever get used to being surrounded in a roomful of gorgeous people even if i wanted to....

my parents may be getting me a lappy this coming monday!!! Yippeee......

so far im looking at this Acer laptop cuz its the cheapest on the market! $1198 40GB and DVD playable....and all the other stuff which i dun understand.....
i might be getting the external hard disk drive $135 for 40GB...cheap right!?!?! people go sim lim square if ya wanna get really freaking cheap IT stuff...haha...i bought my Creative Zen at only $315 there compared to Courts, Harvey Norman etc which costs $365......

sigh my tutor just briefed us abt our assessment.....double sigh......so stress deadlines are freaking everywhere...help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SFF Briefing

so yesterday i went to the briefing.....saw an old time "friend" there.....haha...erm "unfortunately" were did not do the same job together...so...haha...estar will know what im talking about..haha....

ok its kinda tough to describe wat me job scope is here..but in short, i think we'll be assigned per model per dresser thingy..and erm we are supposed to help them dressed up super chop-chop (duh but of course!!)....erm.....take care of the garments......erm.....make sure that the shoes go with the dress....etc etc etc....totally remind me of the maids in the reinassance era..u know where the maids gotta have to pull the strings of the ladies corsets blah blah..haha...im doing something like that!! worse off is that we are not paid....maids are better off! haha...

anyways they (the organizers) keep emphasizing how thankful they are that we volunteered...blah blah...watever zan will be ok if zan is fed and well taken care off....but of course Zan i most happiest if Zan see beautiful girls and boys and extremely beautiful clothes.........

i'll be working for Ashley Isham....Diane Von Fer (something!! haha)....Missoni.....salvatore Ferragamo...Lancome and some tangs and soo kee stuff...a lil bit disappointed i couldnt make it for JPG and Triumph...

anyways i will be taking a whole lot of pix...cuz im using this festival as an assignment for our project.....

so lets cross fingers and hope Zan get a glimpse of her dream man...haha...

Movies u shld watch in this lifetime or next:

contributed by Debs:
-The English Patient
-Kill Bill.....i dun like the 2nd one.....haha...
-Closer
-Ladder 49
-Brokeback Mountain
-Schindler's List
-Crash
-King Kong
-Moulin Rouge
-The french movie - AVery long engagement...or something...cant remember the name...
-Gladiator
-The Descent
-Saw (the first one...)
-LOTR trilogy...but of course...
-The sound of music
-Farenheit 9/11
-American Beauty
-SinCity
-Forrest Gump
-The Princess Bride
-Big Fish
-Stage Beauty
-Shakespeare In Love
-Almost Famous
-Sideways


hmm...i think there are more....but these would rate as classics dun u think? Anyways they are based biasly of my favourites! haha...

Brokeback Mountain

I left the cinema with sadness on my back. I mean, I love the show. Its been so long since a film touched me so. The last was Sin City. But why do I feel so much dread and melancholy at the same time? What I know is im a reformed movie-freak. No more crappy movies for me. I rather watch thought-provoking arthouse flicks like these than Final Destination etc.

I was actually rooting for them to get together in the end even though I know its impossible. The movie started real slow and im beginning to wonder how the hell two GUYS can fall in love surrounded by sheep and mountain!!? Haha. (Walter said it is most probably due to the excessive drinking and the cold and that's why they often hugged! Haha..) But I believe realistically that they are both lonely and long for love or something like that. The most memorable scene for me was when they finally meet after 4 long years and they started to hug and kiss like as if they need air to breathe. So touching I tell ya!!!

Sometimes I wonder why love has to always be so complicated. To hide like that for years seems so painful. If love can transcend colours and race and personality then sex should not be excused. I have newfound respect for gays now. No more gay jokes and no more sexism.

Heath ledger gave a stellar performance. His best so far. (Yes I've watched most of his films and trust me they are not so fantastic..haha). If I become President of the world one day, I will make a Bill that every actors in the world should pass drama class with an A1 before they can act in any movies!!! Anyways I think Jake Gyllenhall deserves an award too. His frank, angry, love/sex-deprived character blends really well with Heath's broody, depressing macho-man.

I cant wait to watch Transamerica.

An orgasmic 21st Birthday!

Well well well....im sincerely impressed! To think my friends would actually throw a surprise mini birthday bash for me!! Haha I love u guys!!!!

11:45pm (8th march 2006):
Estar called.
Me thought he wanna wish me a Happy Birthday.
Then he asked where I am.
I said I'm outside on my way home.
Then estar frantically said he's directly under my block with Huiyun and Stanley with a cake!!
SURPRISE!!!
Hahaa..Apparently he assumed me was at home but I was actually outside with walter. Haha.So me hurriedly took a cab to meet them. So freaking paiseh sia made them wait like that!

12:10am:
Finally reached home!
Met them under the block and apologized profusely!
Phew thank god they were not really mad! (I hope eh...hehe).
So estar actually took the liberty to baked me a choc cake. Love the choc fudge!!
When its present time, they took out this huge black paper bag with a card that says "For raunchy or lonely nights" with freakish drawings on them.
Haha me thought they bought me lingerie and wondered how the hell they guess my size.
But hell no...they actually gotten me a farking vibrating-dildo-whip thingy!! Haha cool! Better then I thought!!!
The best present so far lah! Haha. Cuz it makes Zan a happy woman!
Haha if only it comes with rechargeable batteries eh.............

Huiyun whipping me into shape! hehe...

Now who says my ass is big? haha....

My 2nd birthday cake.

Walter and me celebrated me bdae at East Coast park.

We completed The Lost World game together! WooHoo how cool ah we eh!....

The two person bike that we rode. So fun....